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Rants, Raves and other Sh*t

Hey friends!

Its been a while. I wanted to pop on to do a quick update with a side of venting. I normally try to keep things pretty positive so I don’t want to rattle off too much but here it goes.

Things have been going pretty good. For the most part I really can’t complain. I feel great.  My weight loss has slowed down a little bit but that’s to be expected. My surgeon told me I would lose about 80 pounds from the surgery alone and the rest would be up to me. So far I have lost 86 pounds. (20 pounds to my goal weight) Woot Woot! Go me!

I recently received a call from my surgeons office telling me it’s time to go get my labs checked and have another follow-up appointment with them so I will be sure to keep you all posted on that when the time comes.

As far as complications go I also can’t really say I’ve had too many of those either. (booooooring I know but I’ll take it) The only things I can report are that I am constantly freaking cold. Not even an exaggeration in the least bit. It actually gets kind of annoying. For instance, I sat in the bar watching the Birds destroy Tom Brady and the Pats on Sunday and brought my own blanket. (I just leave it in the car at this point) Yup that was me. The chick sitting in a bar wrapped in a blanket. The other thing was the UTI’s. Remember back in October/November when I ended up with a nasty kidney infection? Yeah well that came back and I think I was on antibiotics for like a month so that sucked. Then I had strep throat on New Years day. So it was definitely rough for a little bit there. Do I know if any of that was directly related to my surgery? Not really. I mean I know being cold is but as far as the other stuff it could have been a complete coincidence so who knows.

Hallelujah! My hair has finally stopped shedding! My skin is doing a lot better as well. Anyone who knows me and what I do for a living knows that my skin is a yuuuuuuuge priority for me. I was breaking out on my neck and the sides of my face and it just sucked! I know a lot of it had to do with hormones and my rapid weight loss and not being able to control it really bothered me. While may hair and skin are doing better, there’s the rest of my skin. Ugh I wish I could say it doesn’t bother me but it does. I have loose skin on my arms, thighs, stomach and don’t even get me started on my boobs. Call me superficial all you want but it bothers me now more than ever. I have loose skin and virtually no breasts left. I try not to let it get to me because right now there just isn’t much I can do about it. BUT I absolutely plan on addressing those issues in the very near future. (another update for another time)

Now to get out a little ranting…. Most of you know by now I started working full-time in December. Something that I wanted for a long time but am not afraid to say am struggling with a bit. How the fuck do people juggle all of this shit? Seriously though? How? This is why I stayed home with my kids for so long. I am so used to being the one who takes my kids to school, pick them up, take them to appointments, get laundry done, clean the house, make dinner, spend quality time with them, go to school functions… So now not only do I have to give out all of those responsibilities (did I mention that the kids are in three different schools😫) but throw in working full-time, making sure all of those things actually get done, and I’m supposed to find time work out? When? I’m not even being sarcastic …  I’m fucking exhausted. (And please don’t tell me to get up at 5 am to work out, that’s not ever gonna happen) Not to mention I feel like my house is falling apart. I literally can’t keep up. My head is spinning right now just thinking about all the shit that needs to get done around here. I am really trying not to sweat the small stuff but it’s very hard for me. So when you see me “living my best life” just know that I am truly faking it till I make it because at this point that’s all I can do. I don’t have it all together but I am doing the best I can and I’m not ashamed to say it. And lastly why the fuck are weekends only two days? Bullshit! Ok I’m done. Just needed to get that out. 😬

Going through this kind of life change is a lot for one person to handle. It’s definitely not something to take lightly. What your body goes through is one thing but what your mind goes through is another. If this surgery is something you are considering please make sure you are mentally prepared. It truly is life altering. For me it’s been really positive. I am definitely more confident than I have ever been. I feel better physically along with feeling better about myself in general. (Remember this is the year of “fuck it’ for me, not that I used to take a lot of shit from people to begin with but if you aren’t contributing positivity to my life then you won’t be in it) I have read plenty of horror stories that scared the shit out of me but I am beyond grateful that nothing serious has happened. Without the risk I wouldn’t have the reward and so far I am for sure reaping all of the benefits.

As always the support I have received has been immeasurable. Thank you doesn’t even begin to cover it. You guys rock!



the girl who is trying to get it together and “Rise”



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2017—–>2018 – Say Goodbye

🎶So here we are tonight 🎶 you and me together🎶….

Well friends, it’s here. The last day of the year. I have completely been slacking on my updates and blogging. This has been one of the most busy/chaotic December’s I’ve ever had.

As most of you know, my husband works full-time and then there’s christmas tree season… where he works two full-time jobs so I essentially become a single parent for the month. (shout out to all the single parents out there doing the damn thing bc its a hard job) Anyway, on top of him working two full time jobs, I started working a full time job for the first time in ten (yes 10!) years. Needless to say, December has been caaaarazzzzaaayyy and I’m not sorry to see it go haha!

As the year comes to a close, I’ve been doing a lot of reflecting. I have to say 2017 has been a pretty good year. It started off pretty rough. Our family without a doubt has had some real struggles both personally and financially. Ultimately I can say that I have grown and learned so much about myself.

I have realized I am way stronger than I could have ever given myself credit for. Having said that I am absolutely not without my own personal struggles. I still struggle with food addiction. I still have a mental battle with food and exercise. I still want crappy food sometimes and sometimes I will absolutely indulge. (I said indulge, not binge 😉) The struggle is definitely real. I know that it is 100% up to me to have the willpower and control over what goes into my body. I learned that a lot of areas in my life needed changing. I am the only one responsible for making myself happy and healthy. No one else has that power.

I also learned that I have way more support than I ever knew. Thank you to those of you who’ve gone out of your way to tell me you love my blog, or to keep up the hard work or just to tell me you’re rooting for me. It means the world to me. And while I am on the subject of support I can’t go without saying how amazing my village is. To my husband, family, and friends (old and new), you mean the world to me. You’re unwavering support is everything and I couldn’t imagine going through this without all of you.

Now down to the nitty gritty. My six month surgiversery came and went in December and a lot of people have asked me how much weight I’ve lost. To which my reply was a constant, “I’m not sure because I stopped weighing myself”. So here it is. To date, I have lost 77 pounds. Gahhhh that’s insane right?! It’s still weird to me. My hair loss has slowed down A LOT, thank God! “So how do you feel?” Another question I’ve gotten a lot lately. I feel really good. I have so much more energy. I sleep better. My back doesn’t constantly hurt anymore. I can run (not walk) up and down steps without huffing and puffing and feeling like I’m going keel over. Not gonna lie, it’s pretty friggen awesome.

My goal for the next six months – a year is to lose 30 more pounds and start to tone up and build some muscle. After all Memorial Day is only 147 days away and then my 40th birthday is 383 days away so I’ve got some moves to make.

All in all, I am grateful for this new tool and this new outlook on life I have been given. I am pretty content with how 2017 is ending but I am more excited to see what 2018 brings. I am hoping it brings all good things to all of you.

As always I am thankful for all of you and the support you’ve all given me. Sending you all lots of love and positive vibes for a prosperous new year!

Bring it on 2018! I’m ready for ya!


the girl who just decided to go for it


☮❤️☀️ ~ T




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No Regrets!

Hey friends!

Exciting news. You’re not gonna believe this shit so I’m just gonna jump right in and get started.

So we all have friends or know people who’ve jumped the Orange Theory Fitness train right? I have been asked a few times if I would give it a try to which I always reply with a very quick “no thanks”. Ever since I almost blacked out in the gym from vertigo, the thought of working out has given me complete anxiety and flat out fear of having another vertigo episode. So after my surgery I knew I had to suck it up and get back in the game. I had a friend mention Orange Theory to me again. At that point I was at a stall in my weight loss so I said “F, it!”. The first class is free so why not. I went. I did it. And guess what? I’m still alive! How about that shit?!!!!

Here’s what I learned. I really enjoyed it. Like genuinely enjoyed it, not just saying that. Yes, it was without a doubt hard and my ass was handed to me. Also today is the first day I am finally able to walk up and down steps without moaning in pain haha. BUT, I felt soooo good afterwards. Like I was buzzing and couldn’t wait to go back even though I was hurting so much. Also, I still really dislike that friggen treadmill. I will say though that its split up enough to be bearable. The main reason I don’t like it is because I feel so off balance on it so maybe the more I do it the better it will get. (I said maybe) So all in all I had a great first experience. The trainer was awesome and walked me through everything. At first I was really intimidated like “look at all these people who know what they are doing, I feel like an idiot.” The reality is that they don’t care what I’m doing in there, they are worried about their own workouts so what the heck was I thinking? Again it was that fear creeping back in so I vowed to not let it control me again and here we are. Woot! Woot!


I have always been the type of person who felt like I needed a workout buddy but the reality is I have always just been intimated, scared and lazy. I have made excuse after excuse for too long and I told myself when I decided to have this surgery that I had to go all in. The surgery alone wasn’t going to be enough to get me where I wanted to be mentally and physically so I really have to take the time to put myself first and not rely on anyone else to get me there.

Even though I was sore as hell and couldn’t walk I figured I was on a roll so why stop there right? I’ve been wanting to try a yoga class for a while. Again completely intimidated but this is the month of “F it!” so I found a groupon for Dana Hot Yoga in Glenside and bought it. All the classes say for every level student so off I went for my very first ever hot yoga class. It was cool 95 degrees in there 😉 and anyone that knows me, knows ever since having this surgery I am always cold so this was a dream for me. So cozy lol. At first, it was really hard for me to relax and get into it. I found it a little difficult to put my mind to rest. Once I did though, it was amazing. Any time I had a pose I  physically couldn’t do I went to something else instead. It was very relaxing. Once I finally set my mind to rest and really focused on my breathing I really got into it. The best part was I knew I was really working my body because it was hard. I am seriously amazed at what these people can do and what our bodies can physically do and I can only hope I can get there one day. I ended the session feeling refreshed and a little more sore than before I went and I came home completely covered from head to toe in sweat.


Lots of new goals set and accomplished this month!

  • I hit -70lb mark.
  • I can comfortably cross my legs.
  • I have zero acid reflux anymore.
  • I rarely get headaches anymore. If I do get one I know it’s because I haven’t eaten or had enough water.
  • I have so much more energy.
  • My lower back pain is gone. ( I mean my entire body hurts but in a good way)
  • I can walk up and down my steps without being out of breath.

So that’s all for now. I’m so excited to have the opportunity to take my life back and get healthy. A HUGE thank you to a certain someone who really helped me get back out there. Without you, I wouldn’t have been able to achieve some of these goals. (you know who you are) I am beyond thankful and appreciative for what you’ve done for me. I am also extremely grateful to be able to share all of this with all of you. As always I appreciate the support and the genuine kind words of encouragement I have received. Until next time friends….

Tina ☮❤️☀️





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My Two Cents

Hey guys! I just wanted to hop on really quick…

As you may have or have not heard, Mariah Carey underwent weight loss surgery six weeks ago. She got the gastric sleeve. This is huge in the WLS community. I belong to several support groups and people are PISSED. So much so that they seem to be completely offended, angry, ranting etc. So of course I felt the need to throw in my two cents. Let me also state there are plenty of people who are supportive of her as well but here it goes.

I think it’s amazing! I mean of course Mariah seems a little cray from time to time (who isn’t) but who the hell is anyone to judge? We have all watched her weight yo-yo for years! It has clearly affected her ability to sing and perform. We don’t know her struggles or where she is mentally. Maybe she has a food addiction? Maybe she’s completely insecure about her weight like a lot of us regular people. I have heard people say “money talks”, “what doctor would approve her”, “she just got it because she’s rich”, “she wasn’t even that big”. Good grief people, knock it off!

If this journey has taught me anything, it’s that not everyone is rooting for you. Yes there are a lot of people who are, but believe me when I tell you its obvious who is jealous and who are watching/waiting for me to fail. I have had people tell me “I didn’t even think you were that big”. While it’s nice to know that people didn’t see me as a bigger person, I think people forget that I am 5’3 and while I’m not ready say what my highest weight was I will say it was over 200 pounds. Do the math, that is insane! I was in denial! Period! I cut the tags out of my shirts because I didn’t want people to see that it was a 2X. I have had “friends” who literally have not said a word to me about the surgery since I had it done. Which is fine with me. I don’t need anyone’s approval because my journey is about me and me alone and their issues are with themselves so it is what it is.

My whole point in even writing this is because in today’s world there is so much judgement. Racism. Gay bashing. Fat/body shaming, the list could go on. Enough is enough! You don’t have to agree with what everyone says or does. I’m not saying I’m not guilty. Hell we all are. Nobody is perfect. There is no such thing. Sometimes it’s almost like an instinct or defense mechanism to judge right away. But damned if I’m not trying to be better. (Ps. it’s been super hard to bite my tongue but I have accomplished doing it quite a few times, yay) I just think it’s time to have some damn compassion and respect for each other. Kudos to Mariah Carey for being brave enough to share her journey with the world and be public about it. That couldn’t have been an easy decision to make but good for her.

So that is the end of my little rant… stay tuned for my next update. I have some scary/fun things happening soon and I promise to update as soon as those things happen.

As always, thanks for all the support!

Tina ☮❤️☀️

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Hairballs and Kidneys

Hey guys! Here I am exactly 3 months post op (go me!) and I’m back with an update.

So it’s finally started happening. The great hair loss. It was fully expected but I was really hoping I would be one of those rare people who didn’t have to deal with it. Unfortunately that is not the case. Thankfully my lovely husband has been so kind as to keep detaching the top of the shower drain and cleaning it out so I don’t clog it too badly. I also have a dear girlfriend who is an ahhhmazing hair stylist who knows how to cut my hair just right. She took off a few inches which I feel like has completely made my hair feel and look much better so I’m not seeing a bunch of stringy hairballs like before. (if you want her info let me know and I will totally hook you up) Who knows how long this will last. Everyone says something different. I just know that is a very common side effect and there is little anyone can do about it. My doctors say that as long as I focus on getting in my protein, vitamins/supplements, get in all my fluids then I will be good. The good news is that the hair will grow back.

For those of you that are friends with myself or my husband on Facebook you may have seen an adorable picture floating around of me and my sweet baby girl snuggling up on the couch while I wasn’t feeling good. Well that was taken after a nice long day spent in the ER being poked and prodded. I guess it was about two weeks ago I woke up one day just feeling kind blah. Low energy, not much of an appetite and a headache. Not really thinking much of it I went along with my normal routine. The headache lasted a couple of days and so did the low energy etc. Then I started feeling kind of dizzy/shaky. Assuming it was because my blood sugar was low because I hadn’t eaten or even drank much. So I made it a point to really focus on getting in all my protein and really drink a lot of water. I did feel better after that. Or so I thought. That night around 12:30 am I woke up freezing with the chills. When I say the chills I mean I was literally uncontrollably shaking. Shaking to the point that I had to put on a robe and heating pad while under a comforter in order to warm up and stop shaking. After about 45 minutes I stopped shaking and fell asleep only to wake up burning up with a fever of 102 about an hour later. The next morning I felt ok. I was exhausted but I felt ok. I called my surgeons office and left a message at the nurses station stating what happened because I assumed it was related to my surgery and to be honest I was really fucking scared. I never got a call back from anyone. (still a little bitter about that) This went on for three (yes 3) days. I would get the chills, like my insides were cold and I couldn’t get warm, and then I would start burning up to the point of dripping sweat. Like soaking wet and having to change my clothes. So I take a nice hot shower because what else would I do when I’m so damn cold. Yeah, not the best idea. I’m in the shower when the tunnel vision starts and I have to hold onto the wall because I’m about to black out. I call for my husband and tell him what’s going on and that I want to go to the ER. Get out of the shower shaking, get dressed and off we go. Now remember my symptoms were literally just fever and chills. I felt a little light headed but that was it. No other symptoms of anything. They take lots of blood, do blood cultures, urine sample, check me for the flu because they had just seen their first case the day before, did a chest x-ray, and an EKG. The culprit? My urine! I apparently had a urinary tract infection that was left untreated and had moved to my kidneys. Only I had zero symptoms of a UTI or kidney infection. Listen I drink water ALL day long which in turn means I pee ALL day long. I had no painful urination, never felt like I had to pee and nothing was coming out. Zero symptoms! So while this wasn’t directly related to my surgery, my surgery did affect the way my body reacted to the infection. Once they realized what was going on I received and IV of antibiotics and a script. I followed up with my primary doctor a few days later. He looked up my blood work to make sure I wasn’t resistant to the antibiotic they gave me and guess what? …. ding ding ding you guessed it, I was! Heres the kicker, he took another urine sample and it came back clean and there was no new bacteria growth. Wanting to play its safe, he gave me another antibiotic anyway. I am finally feeling better and back to having energy and an appetite. It’s crazy how different my body reacts to things now. It definitely made me be more self-aware and to really pay attention and listen to my body.


Okay, enough of that stuff. A new non scale victory for me… Going to buy new jeans and grab what I thought was my size only to realize that I needed a smaller size. So my friends drum roll please…. I have gone from a size 18 to currently a size 12. A lot of people keep asking me how much I’m down now and my response has been that I stopped weighing myself which is true. But for this update I did just weigh myself today and saw that I am officially down 60 pounds! I honestly cannot believe it. It’s so weird to me because I feel like I have become a bit obsessed with not liking how certain body parts look. Not at all trying to sound vain. I just look at pictures of myself and think how could I do that to myself? How could I let myself go like that? Why didn’t I make myself a priority? Why didn’t I love myself enough to take control? I’m not trying to beat myself up but it does kind of make me sad that I let it get that bad. I know I’ve said it before but it truly makes me appreciate this tool and the opportunity I have been given. As always I appreciate all of the support that I have received over the past few months. So many of you have gone out of your way to check in with me or just to tell me that you’re rooting for me and I appreciate each and every one of you.

Tina ☮❤️☀️




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What you wanna know…

Hi Friends! I’m back with the answers to your questions. I received some really good ones. A lot were pretty similar so I’m going to post the questions along with the answers. Again, I need to stress that not all surgeries are created equal. Not all surgeons are the same or require the same of their patients. This is MY personal experience. So, here we go.

Q: What is the hardest part so far of this experience? (asked a lot)

A: I have a couple of things I am finding hard. The first would be getting on a schedule/routine of working out. I walk pretty often but now that the kids are all back to school and things are becoming more routine for all of us I am really trying to make a habit of working out. I don’t have the money to join a fancy gym so ideally I would like to mix things up by doing an at home workout and then pop into a yoga class a couple of times a week. I feel like once I conquer the workout routine I’ll be a little more satisfied. I am still working on making myself a priority but I am definitely getting there. (baby steps friends 😉) I’m trying to save my lash loot for a Peloton bike (another goal set)

The next thing that has been hard getting used to is not eating and drinking at the same time. Sounds like no biggie right? Try it… most of have been drinking with our meals our entire lives. If I drink and eat at the same time then I won’t really be able to eat much of anything let alone get all the protein and nutrition I need. It can also cause horrible gas pains. I’m getting used to it but it’s not easy.

Lastly, not being able to chug a bottle of water. Wahhhhh! If you know me, you know that I ALWAYS have a bottle or giant cup of water with me at all times. Because of my new little stomach, chugging anything is out of the questions. I still have my trusty bottle of water with me at all times but now I just have to sip. The bigger the sip seriously hurts. I still take too big of a sip sometimes and I just have breathe it out lol.

Q: Do you think you will have to have skin removal surgery and will insurance cover it?

A: I am really not sure about having skin removal surgery. I am down 50 lbs so far. My goal is to lose another 55. I will see where I am when I get there. As far as insurance covering it, as far as I know it is not usually covered unless it is medically necessary for it to be removed which does happen in certain cases. I just don’t think it would happen in my case. So for me, I am not saying its out of the question. I think I would be more interested in a mommy makeover type of plastic surgery lol.

Q: Do you miss drinking alcohol? Can you drink?

A: No & No. Haha so I have never been much of a drinker. It’s just not something that I really care about or ever have for that matter. I don’t particularly like it. I enjoy a few drinks here and there but getting drunk is just not my thing. With that being said, yes you can eventually drink. It was recommended to me by my surgeon that I not drink alcohol for about a year. Deep breath people, it’s not that bad. With part of your stomach removed or bypassed you are unable to metabolize the alcohol. Most alcohol absorption happens in the small intestine. If the stomach can’t break as much down, more alcohol will be absorbed by your system. (catching my drift? no nutritional value there either) Procedures that bypass the connection between your stomach and small intestine no longer have that barrier to slow down the passing of fluids. As a result, the alcohol passes even more quickly into your small intestines and boom you are drunk, like after one drink. Plus all of the sugar and carbs in those adult bevies are not ideal for a freshly healing stomach. Will I eventually drink again? Of course I will. But I will absolutely continue to follow my doctors orders and I will do it when I get the ok.

Q: How are you dealing with your food addiction? (this was asked a lot)

A: Pardon my language.. but it’s fucking hard as shit! Flat out, some days suck and some are just easier than others. Some days I want nothing to do with junk. Some days I want to eat a bag of Jax or dark chocolate covered almonds from Trader Joe’s or Doritos wrapped in a soft pretzel. But I am absolutely finding that those days are becoming less and less. I think that since I am not hungry most of the time it really helps. I don’t think about it all the time. I also really try to make it habit of not having a ton of junk in my house. Yes I still buy some things. I have three growing boys who NEVER stop eating. BUT, I am really trying to get them to make better choices, so while they might have a bag of chips or popcorn in the pantry, they will also pick up an apple, banana, orange or string cheese to eat. I am also finding joy and happiness in things other than food. For instance, I love being an esthetician. I recently started a new job and so far I am really enjoying it. I look forward to going there and meeting new people. (P.S. if you’re looking for an amazing esty, come see me at 3000BC Chesnut Hill) Again, the workout routine coming into play would be another check off my list to keep me busy. I would just like to be one of those people who truly enjoys working out (again baby steps). The other thing that really helps is support. My husband, my family & friends. I have so much support. It might sound corny but being able to share this with all of you keeps me motivated. I have a lot to prove to myself and I don’t know when or why or how it happened but I am more motivated now that I have ever been. I think because I am seeing the results and I just feel better all around so that helps keep my head on straight if that makes sense.

Q: Did your insurance cover your surgery? What qualifications did you need to be approved for surgery?

A: Yes my insurance covered my surgery 100%. The only thing I paid was co-pays to see my surgeon, nutritionist and psychologist. I also paid $10 for cable in my hospital room. If I am being honest I am not totally sure about the requirements. I know that is probably not the answer you are looking for but I know all insurance companies are different.  I am pretty sure the main requirement is that you have to be diagnosed as morbidly obese with a BMI over 40. Some insurances will require you to see a psychologist (some for a certain amount of time) and a nutritionist. My suggestion would be to call your insurance company and ask. That’s what I did. As soon as they said it was covered I called to meet with a surgeon for more info. Once I got the ball rolling it took five months from meeting my surgeon to having the surgery.

So that’s it for now. I loved being able to hear from a lot of you and I appreciate the questions. I am always open to talking about it so don’t be afraid to ask.

Here are some non scale victories….

  • I have a neck, just one!
  • my collarbone is poking through, like you can actually see it!
  • I can comfortable cross my legs.
  • my feet are shrinking.
  • my wedding ring is officially too big. So much so that I had to buy and temporary sizer to put on it.
  • You can actually start to see my dimples in my face.
  • I bought a sweater in a size SMALL!! Holy SHIT you guys!

Ok I’m really done this time. Thank you all for always supporting me.

Tina ❤️☮☀️


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Ask me anything…

Hey friends! So I wanted to do something a little different this time around. I want you, my lovely supportive readers, to ask me your questions. What do you want to know either about me personally, about surgery, about pre or post op? Are you thinking about having surgery and don’t know where to begin? ANYTHING! Either drop me a line here, on Facebook or through private message and I will do my best to answer your all of your questions.  I will then post the questions and answers in the next blog and give you another update because I have few things going on that I want to share. I look forward to hearing from everyone.

Tina ☮❤️☀️

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