Its been a while. I wanted to pop on to do a quick update with a side of venting. I normally try to keep things pretty positive so I don’t want to rattle off too much but here it goes.
Things have been going pretty good. For the most part I really can’t complain. I feel great. My weight loss has slowed down a little bit but that’s to be expected. My surgeon told me I would lose about 80 pounds from the surgery alone and the rest would be up to me. So far I have lost 86 pounds. (20 pounds to my goal weight) Woot Woot! Go me!
I recently received a call from my surgeons office telling me it’s time to go get my labs checked and have another follow-up appointment with them so I will be sure to keep you all posted on that when the time comes.
As far as complications go I also can’t really say I’ve had too many of those either. (booooooring I know but I’ll take it) The only things I can report are that I am constantly freaking cold. Not even an exaggeration in the least bit. It actually gets kind of annoying. For instance, I sat in the bar watching the Birds destroy Tom Brady and the Pats on Sunday and brought my own blanket. (I just leave it in the car at this point) Yup that was me. The chick sitting in a bar wrapped in a blanket. The other thing was the UTI’s. Remember back in October/November when I ended up with a nasty kidney infection? Yeah well that came back and I think I was on antibiotics for like a month so that sucked. Then I had strep throat on New Years day. So it was definitely rough for a little bit there. Do I know if any of that was directly related to my surgery? Not really. I mean I know being cold is but as far as the other stuff it could have been a complete coincidence so who knows.
Hallelujah! My hair has finally stopped shedding! My skin is doing a lot better as well. Anyone who knows me and what I do for a living knows that my skin is a yuuuuuuuge priority for me. I was breaking out on my neck and the sides of my face and it just sucked! I know a lot of it had to do with hormones and my rapid weight loss and not being able to control it really bothered me. While may hair and skin are doing better, there’s the rest of my skin. Ugh I wish I could say it doesn’t bother me but it does. I have loose skin on my arms, thighs, stomach and don’t even get me started on my boobs. Call me superficial all you want but it bothers me now more than ever. I have loose skin and virtually no breasts left. I try not to let it get to me because right now there just isn’t much I can do about it. BUT I absolutely plan on addressing those issues in the very near future. (another update for another time)
Now to get out a little ranting…. Most of you know by now I started working full-time in December. Something that I wanted for a long time but am not afraid to say am struggling with a bit. How the fuck do people juggle all of this shit? Seriously though? How? This is why I stayed home with my kids for so long. I am so used to being the one who takes my kids to school, pick them up, take them to appointments, get laundry done, clean the house, make dinner, spend quality time with them, go to school functions… So now not only do I have to give out all of those responsibilities (did I mention that the kids are in three different schools😫) but throw in working full-time, making sure all of those things actually get done, and I’m supposed to find time work out? When? I’m not even being sarcastic … I’m fucking exhausted. (And please don’t tell me to get up at 5 am to work out, that’s not ever gonna happen) Not to mention I feel like my house is falling apart. I literally can’t keep up. My head is spinning right now just thinking about all the shit that needs to get done around here. I am really trying not to sweat the small stuff but it’s very hard for me. So when you see me “living my best life” just know that I am truly faking it till I make it because at this point that’s all I can do. I don’t have it all together but I am doing the best I can and I’m not ashamed to say it. And lastly why the fuck are weekends only two days? Bullshit! Ok I’m done. Just needed to get that out. 😬
Going through this kind of life change is a lot for one person to handle. It’s definitely not something to take lightly. What your body goes through is one thing but what your mind goes through is another. If this surgery is something you are considering please make sure you are mentally prepared. It truly is life altering. For me it’s been really positive. I am definitely more confident than I have ever been. I feel better physically along with feeling better about myself in general. (Remember this is the year of “fuck it’ for me, not that I used to take a lot of shit from people to begin with but if you aren’t contributing positivity to my life then you won’t be in it) I have read plenty of horror stories that scared the shit out of me but I am beyond grateful that nothing serious has happened. Without the risk I wouldn’t have the reward and so far I am for sure reaping all of the benefits.
As always the support I have received has been immeasurable. Thank you doesn’t even begin to cover it. You guys rock!
the girl who is trying to get it together and “Rise”